i am totally upset and depressed.there is no word that could describe how hurt i am.i feel like a jinx.unbelievable but true.i am feeling low right now.i live in the world of failure.the feeling of failure and fear is partly in my mind right now.
i got my prelim's maths paper.i failed.again.i dun how how the hell i went wrong.i did everything she asked me,''practise,practise,practise''.i did.i stayed like an owl,drinking jugs of nescafe just to study and keep memorising,practising this ferocious mathematics paper.well i did very well,in fact,feels like an Band1 students during the practise of tys,but on the examination hall,i feel like a bitsy primary one lamb doing an N level paper.well upon receiving the paper,all she could do is say,''sri,try more harder..'' hey,how hard u want me to practise,so all this while i did not met ur expectations?i have accomplished ur command or advise or what shit it is,and now ure trying to say i did not put in effort?oh come on..cut me some slack would you???!!!i nearly filling my eyes with tears upon seeing my results.but i hold it back coz if i shed a tear,it would make no difference.like as if the drop of tears would drastically amment my math marks from a F9 to an A1.no use.
well faizah,u did cheer me up by saying i did extremely-melly improved.well,thanks,but im not impressed.sorry.u could not feel like i do coz ure did extremely well and the feeling of maths failure is totally vanished in ur mind.well typically said,''alah,at least kau pass..tak mcm aku.''haha hilarious,but true.
haiz..well im not going to give up.i will lift up my head,pick up those tys and start all over again.if i did not get great expected marks ,i dun feel a lose out here,but the determination and perseverance and never give up attitude is what i want to be expected high.i would be strong,if there is so much to suffer.
oh yah,i will not self-absorbed on what ive learnt.i would to like to share my knowledge and to everyone,not being like someone whom is self-centered,whom think that hes better than anyone else.snob people nowadays...
shower me with determination
lighthen my life with the light of courage S
show me the right track to perseverance
withdraw me from failure
restrain me from giving up
guide me to the world of success
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