Dear Mr Memory,
When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you. Just looking at you two, makes tears flow from my eyes. Why am I so dumb of not letting you know how much I felt for you? I think of you with every waking moment of my life and dream of you with every dream that I have. I can't forget the times we’ve shared together. The sadness and the happiness, the failure and success, the jokes and laughter. I don’t know when it will happen again, seems like a part of me was gone. Days go by so fast, not a day do I not think of you. I just miss the way you put things under table. I miss the way to prepared things for me before the class starts. Remember the mini Valentine surprise that I found under my table? Remember you always wished and sang me birthday song for the last 5 birthdays I’ve experienced with you? The comforting images of you takes hold of my soul and through my eyes I visualize the time I had with you before you had to go; taking a part of me with you. I still remembered how you used to stand up for me when problem strikes my way. I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh. But I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry. I guess I’m just missing the old times. When I think of you I get this feeling that I want to see you. Our path differs now. You had her to take care of you. I’m just happy that you appreciates her with all you life. As for me, I am still searching for the one that fits my heart best. Yes, I heard that you have the same feelings like how I have the feelings for you. But it’s too late. Nevermind, let fate takes its place. I’m so sorry for letting you wait until you actually gave up. Deeply, sorry. But I really can’t hold this feeling of mine that always appeared in my heart that I miss you so much. I hope that this last birthday I’ve spent with you today will make me forget about you.
Love,
Sri Nurulhuda
(written on 2nd September 2006)
When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you. Just looking at you two, makes tears flow from my eyes. Why am I so dumb of not letting you know how much I felt for you? I think of you with every waking moment of my life and dream of you with every dream that I have. I can't forget the times we’ve shared together. The sadness and the happiness, the failure and success, the jokes and laughter. I don’t know when it will happen again, seems like a part of me was gone. Days go by so fast, not a day do I not think of you. I just miss the way you put things under table. I miss the way to prepared things for me before the class starts. Remember the mini Valentine surprise that I found under my table? Remember you always wished and sang me birthday song for the last 5 birthdays I’ve experienced with you? The comforting images of you takes hold of my soul and through my eyes I visualize the time I had with you before you had to go; taking a part of me with you. I still remembered how you used to stand up for me when problem strikes my way. I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh. But I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry. I guess I’m just missing the old times. When I think of you I get this feeling that I want to see you. Our path differs now. You had her to take care of you. I’m just happy that you appreciates her with all you life. As for me, I am still searching for the one that fits my heart best. Yes, I heard that you have the same feelings like how I have the feelings for you. But it’s too late. Nevermind, let fate takes its place. I’m so sorry for letting you wait until you actually gave up. Deeply, sorry. But I really can’t hold this feeling of mine that always appeared in my heart that I miss you so much. I hope that this last birthday I’ve spent with you today will make me forget about you.
Love,
Sri Nurulhuda
(written on 2nd September 2006)